Before I go to my most visited social media internet sites, I want to wish myself a most happy sober first birthday. Right here. As I wake up this Wednesday morning…
I am going to have to force myself to think of myself first in this case, the first thing I thought about this morning while peeing was how uncomfortable it is going to be on Friday at the 5:30 meeting, and that I had no more chances to take a 1 year chip on Tuesday noon in June!
It is really strange, and I don’t know how common this is, but I always/never think of myself/everyone else constantly in regards to LIFE in general…I don’t think I will ever figure this out. Ever.
Since I am fighting with Aaron, Anthony and a bunch of others about all of this, I think I am going to be as quiet as possible about everything, including my confusion. I am tired of this topic. Very tired.
So, here I am, writing on my blog on my birthday! Seems like the most natural thing in the world for me to do. Now that I know I am a writer. I have tried for so insanely long to be a writer. Knew I was a writer.
Now I want to be paid as a writer. That is the next step. Won’t that be nice!?!
But it does suffice simply to practice my craft. I love it and will continue to write no matter what. I do think this is true, but if I choose to stop, that will have to be ok, too.
I am happy to have this blog, Facebook, hotmail, and all the rest. Thank you Mikayla and Ron Frigon for showing me some of the alternative ways of expression. Thanks for your friendship, as well.
I am 1 year old today, happy as I’ll ever be, and grateful as I know how to my God, and to my friends, to AA, and to myself,
Love from my heart,